My First Free Write

So here I am at Hofstra and I am blogging.  Writing online makes me feel differently depending on the situation and the social network I'm writing on. If I write anonymously on a blog I feel free. I feel as though I have a voice that people listen to without actually judging me first. But when I write on networks like Facebook or other networks where people know me by name I feel as though my creativity is limited. There is always that fear of being judged by your peers, so sometimes people, and I know this goes for me as well, conform their thoughts to fit others standards so that they don't get picked on. What's crazy though is that other people do it too. It seems as though everyone has at least a tiny bit of a fear of being judged so they hold back from being who they truly are. But what's also crazy is that everyone judges everyone else whether they realize that they do it or not. When making friends you try to find people you have things in common with, so you may prejudge people by the way they dress, talk, or act before deciding to become friends with them. It's natural for people to subconsciously judge others, but if we could somehow eliminate the fear of being judge and just come to terms with the fact that it will always happen then maybe we could learn to let go and be who we want to be. It's cliche but there really is nothing better than being yourself. Throughout your teenage years especially you will hear people say that, but it's true. If you don't stay true to who you are you may begin to conform to society's standards and lose yourself in the process. Nothing is worse than feeling like you don't know who you are or how you fit into the world. No one wants to be a clone of anyone, and everyone wants to be different, but you can't be different if you're too focused on how everyone perceives you. Now I'm not saying that I never fear being judged by others because that's just completely silly. I do care what others think of me every now and then but I do try not to let it bother me. If I'm having fun, and being myself, and there are people who love me in the process then I think that's all that should matter. There will always be people who won't like you, and you can't change that, so why worry about it? The only person's opinion of you who should matter is you. You will always come to find that there are more people who like you than who don't. So don't be afraid to be yourself ever. Never lose touch of who you genuinely are. Don't be afraid to dance in front of your mirror in your underwear while singing into a hairbrush. Everyone does weird things when they think no one's watching, but that's who they truly are. Never lose that.